Don't compare me to Whitey Bulger, you fucking liars.
It has never mattered if I'm mean or not mean, angry or sad, crying, suicidal and in the mental hospital (where I and other unfortunate psychiatric patients have also been illegally filmed in the bathroom), or standing at the edge of the platform in a train station, wondering if I SHOULD JUST FUCKING JUMP THIS TIME!
NOTHING GETS THOSE FUCKING CAMERAS OUT OF MY BATHROOM!
When you're not thinking about the shit that you're making me live in every day, I'm still living in it. Of course you don't want to worry about it; you have spent almost a decade making excuses for why the people whom you criminally victimize deserve it, for why the abuse that you inflict or that you promote isn't abuse, for why it's funny, for why it's not your fault, for why YOUR VICTIMS ARE TO BLAME INSTEAD OF YOU.
What do you think you are, a free press? Telling the truth to the world? Defending humanity against human rights abuses? Protecting the public by giving accurate information?
How many more times do you think that I should ask nicely that my human rights stop being criminally violated, for how many more years do you think I should have to ask?
How many times have I tried to ask nicely? About as many times as you have ignored everything that I have said.
How would you feel if you had to live the way that I had to live? You don't think about that, do you? Empathy has no part in this fucking nightmare.
Do you think that I like to feel like this? Do you think that I like to be given more evidence of the ability of people to be TOTAL FUCKING SCUM with every 24-hour cycle during which EVERYONE WHO KNOWS ABOUT THE VOYEURISM AND INVOLUNTARY PORNOGRAPHY DOES NOTHING TO STOP IT?!
You shut your fucking mouths about me. You are PAID to LIE!
Horrifyingly, the worst years of my life are ahead of me. When the millions of people who now know me as "Crazy Internet Lady Who Thinks Celebrities Are Stalking Her," whose hateblogs ridiculing me online prevent me from getting or keeping employment and housing, eventually and inevitably know me as "I guess she wasn't crazy, but look at all these YEARS OF VIDEO OF HER IN THE SHOWER AND THE BATHROOM," then the worst of the torture will begin.
It's not only everything that those people will be saying about me, although that would make anyone want to die. It's also that I'll be at risk of being physically, in addition to visually, sexually assaulted for the rest of my life.
LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE! YOU'RE A BUNCH OF FUCKING MONSTERS; THAT'S ALL YOU EVER WERE!
I have tried to be nice about it for years; all that did was make you accuse me of liking it.
Also, do you think that people who kill themselves are never angry, that they're never helpless? What do you think makes people want to die?
Here's a quiz about suicide:
Do people kill themselves because they have:
A) A normal amount of control over their lives
B) No power whatsoever to stop smug, ignorant, selfish fuckwads from ABUSING THE EVERLIVING SHIT OUT OF THEM FOR YEARS IN THE PAST AND FOR THE INDEFINITE FUTURE
I have kept a low profile as much as possible. I have never exploited the attention of famous people, powerful people, corporations, or anyone else for monetary or other gain. Therefore, regular people do not know that I'm telling the truth. If I walk into a police station and say "There are hidden and illegal cameras in homeless shelters, mental hospitals, gyms, and affordable housing throughout Massachusetts," whoever is sitting behind the bullet-proof glass IS. NOT. GOING. TO. BELIEVE. ME. because he or she has no idea who the fuck I am. If I give the person my name, he or she is still not going to know who the fuck I am. If I try to explain how I know that there are hidden and illegal cameras proliferating throughout Massachusetts, that person is going to assume that I am a crazy homeless person, and he or she is not going to do anything about it.
You think about this explanation:
"I know that there are hidden and illegal cameras criminally violating me and other people in Massachusetts because I see coded references to those crimes on the front pages of newspapers, in ads on TV, in magazines and on the Internet, and at the social media of celebrities and other famous people. Ed Sheeran and Justin Bieber just wrote another song about me. Their wives are really pissed off about it. They all want to believe that it's my fault. I keep trying to tell them that you, Random Police Officer at the window at the police station, aren't going to believe me if I ask for your help, so they have to do something to make you believe me, but either they don't take that seriously or they just think it's funny that I can't get help to stop what they're doing."
It is my impression, given that I have in the past sometimes been stalked by police officers, and that I think I might have seen one of those vehicles parked on a street between the Pine Street Inn and the gym a few days ago, that there are some people who work for law enforcement who know the voyeurism and involuntary pornography are real and who might be hacking the hidden and illegal cameras and watching the law-abiding, peaceful citizens whose rights are being sickeningly violated.
You, the Boston Globe, and everyone else who is like you have created this hopeless disintegration of ethics, this DISGUSTING BETRAYAL OF THE PUBLIC TRUST, and it is your responsibility to do something about it. You sit there and you act as if what I'm supposed to be doing is saying or doing something that will make you think I don't deserve to be CRIMINALLY VIOLATED EVERY DAY. THESE ARE CRIMES! THEY WERE ALREADY CRIMES BEFORE THEY STARTED HAPPENING TO ME AND TO EVERYONE ELSE WHOM YOU ARE VICTIMIZING, PEOPLE WHOM YOU CAN'T PRETEND EVER DID ANYTHING TO YOU OR TO FUCKING IDIOTS LIKE ED SHEERAN AND JUSTIN BIEBER.
IT IS YOUR FUCKING FAULT! HOW DARE YOU ACCUSE ME OF BEING "MEAN" WHEN YOU HAVE SPENT ALMOST A DECADE ABUSING THE FIRST AMENDMENT TO PROMOTE SEXUAL VIOLENCE AND OTHER CRIMES AGAINST SOCIETY'S MOST VULNERABLE PEOPLE?
