YOU CAN'T HAVE CAMERAS IN PEOPLE'S BATHROOMS! (Criminal, voyeuristic bullying)

I have a continual conversation all day, in which I am lamenting being fat.

I do not own a pair of pants larger than size 6.

The jeans that I've been wearing for the past several weeks have a waist size of 26.

I always gain weight when I'm homeless.  This time, probably due to my age, the weight seems to be lurking on my stomach.  When you are homeless, as I have written countless pages about, you have much less control over what and when you eat.  You can't store food.  You can't cook food.  If you buy food, you have to consume it all the day that you buy it or throw it away.

When you're walking around, whether you're actually hungry or triggered by walking past places that sell food, you're not walking through streets of vegetable carts staffed by organic farmers.

This summer, I did everything that I could to have fun.  I can take or leave ice cream most of the time; this summer, I frequently bought it because it was summer and it is normal to have ice cream in the summer.  Sometimes I had it even when I didn't want it.  It was Fuck You Assholes ice cream.

When I have lived in my apartment for a while and my weight stabilizes, I don't know if all of the fat is going to drop off my stomach or not; probably not.  I will probably lose another 5 or 10 pounds, and I will look like a smaller version of what I look like now.

I try to be realistic and healthy about aging, despite all of the vicious people who have watched me AND EVERYONE AROUND ME in bathrooms every day since I was thrown out of my last apartment for objecting to being criminally victimized by hidden, illegal cameras.

I do not owe anyone this explanation.

YOU CAN'T HAVE CAMERAS IN PEOPLE'S BATHROOMS!