Tuesday, May 26, 2020

I don't care about being laughed at.

I have always said that.  It took me a while to realize that it does bother a lot of people and that they are afraid of it.  It's not fun but it doesn't frighten me.  I spent my 18th birthday in a psychiatric unit, so I have spent my entire adult life stigmatized.  Whether or not people know that you have a psychiatric history, discrimination and abuse against people who have psychiatric histories are not recognized as such by most of society.  I am used to inaccurate societal assumptions and to being the automatic target of hatred, fear, disgust, ridicule and lies.

It's not an issue of my feelings.  Ridicule is a sign that people aren't going to change what they're doing that hurts other people in much more serious ways than being laughed at.

Also, in a decade of conglomerate jokes about me, thousands of them, I have yet to think that any of them are funny.  These people aren't funny; they're stupid.

That does bother me.  It bothers me that stupid people have control over my life.  Not only are stupid people a horrible nuisance, they can't be reasoned with.