My personal update

Still waking up several times every night, either in the middle of a panic attack or anxiety that takes hours to subside.  Still suicidal on a regular basis because of the years of involuntary pornography that have been inflicted on me for others' amusement and the lifetime of exposure to an ever-larger audience as the years of video circulate.  Still trying to cope with my resulting hatred of humanity.  Still broke and middle-aged with dwindling hopes of creating a normal, healthy social life in time to meet a nice guy and have a kid.  Still horrified by the fact that these crimes aren't being stopped, that all of the innocent, unsuspecting victims of these crimes are probably not going to be given restitution and that all of the perpetrators and bystanders are probably not going to be accountable.  Trying not to end this page by swearing at everyone who deserves it.