Sunday, January 19, 2020

I can't live with full awareness of what has happened to me and is still happening to me.

If I did, I would go insane or kill myself.

Even trying not to dwell on how horrifying my life is, I think about killing myself every day, usually for several hours every day.

I live in constant dread.

I don't understand how so many people can be so cruel for so many years.  I don't know what the conglomerate wants from me.  It seems as if what it wants is to torture me for the rest of my life.