My emotional connections to celebrities who have abused me should be taken as signs that I really am being abused and not as signs that I am an enthusiastic participant in what degrades me or a liar about anything.  I'm not maliciously trying to besmirch reputations with false accusations.
My situation fits an abuse pattern.  The response from observers that it's not abuse because I can humanize those who dehumanize me is a stereotyped, victim-blaming response. 
You can try it.  You can try what I have lived through and then decide what to think of me. 
I don't owe to anyone to show up on a doorstep crying.  It's bad enough that I'm being abused and have been abused by so many people for so many years.  Nobody has the right to say how I should be dealing with being abused, especially because I specifically ask for the help that's needed and it is never given. 
Saturday, January 18, 2020
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I don't have millions of dollars to protect my image, the way that celebrities do, and it shows. Here are quotes from Carey Martell, one...
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Although my life is really awful, I am not in the dire situation described at the previous page. Unfortunately, I'll be 46 this summer...
 
