I'm so sad every day and all the time.

I wake up and go to sleep sad.  If I wake up in the middle of the night, I'm sad.

I don't know why nobody seems to care that I and so many other people have been criminally victimized for so many years.

Even if the crimes of illegal filming stop being committed, the damage that's already been done is never going to go away; it's only going to get worse as the video filmed circulates to a bigger audience for the rest of my life and even after my death.

All control over how I present my life to other people has been deliberately, maliciously taken from me.

If someone cuts off part of your body or otherwise permanently disfigures you, all you can do is live with the effects of what that person did to you.  I don't think that anyone wants to realize that's what this is like.  That is how I feel about it.  I've been permanently disfigured, socially and professionally.  The total lack of respect with which I am treated by everyone who knows that I'm telling the truth about hidden, illegal cameras all over the place speaks far more to what it's about than people trying to reassure themselves that no serious crime has been committed, either by telling me and themselves that I'm attractive or that I deserve to be violated.  They want me to accept their increasingly ludicrous compliments, not because they care how I feel; if they had ever cared how I feel about anything, someone would have put a stop to the voyeurism as soon as it started.

They want to make me feel some other way than how any normal person would feel, because they don't want to feel bad about what they have done and what they're doing.  If they can't make me say that there's nothing wrong with it, they're going to keep saying that I deserve it, as if anyone could ever deserve to be treated like this.