The more involved in politics I am, and the longer that the conglomerate perpetuates the idea that I'm a nymphomaniac who deserves to be sexually assaulted, the more certain it is that I'll die like this. Having had years to think about it, I am mostly at peace with that knowledge, although not with the prospect of the pain. I'm scared of that much pain.
Probably everyone who speaks out or who lives a life of this type of service eventually accepts that this is the most probable way that his or her life will end. Sometimes I wonder if there are people living in Boston whose job it is to assassinate me if they're given a signal to do it; maybe that's paranoia. It is also sad for me to think that, if I ever am able to have a place to live, to work for years, to build a social life, to date and marry someone, to have children, then everyone who is close to me will be at risk. A spouse could consciously choose to live that life with me; our children wouldn't.
https://www.jpost.com/Middle-East/Jihadists-stone-Christian-woman-to-death-in-Syria-595978
Obviously, this woman was far more saintly than I am; that didn't save her. They tortured her for 9 hours before they killed her.
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