If I kill myself, then the conglomerate writes the rest of the story.

I think that the conglomerate would like it if I killed myself.  Then it could have some more drama, and wallow a little in guilt, which are both things that the conglomerate likes to use as substitutes for changing what it does.

Then the conglomerate could have what it  most wants, which is not to be confronted by reality.  While I'm alive, the conglomerate can only ignore what I'm saying about how I really feel 99.9% of the time.  It can only ignore the horrible ways that its abuse of me impacts my life 99.9% of the time.  It can only ignore the stupidity of its victim-blaming while it COMMITS CRIMES 99.9% of the time.