I'm not lying or delusional about the cameras. Not only does Saturday Night Live know that I'm not lying or delusional, the show has relentlessly exploited me for years.
I am at a loss to understand your ongoing pandering to this industry. I am in a much worse situation than you are, and I don't pander.
At this point your negligence is bordering on criminal negligence, at least in spirit. I don't know how much more time you're going to spend in denial.