For the first several years of knowing that I had been and was continuing to be criminally victimized by an obscenely powerful group of people who obscenely enjoy their obscene crimes, I was not able to think past what the burden that they had mirthfully forced onto me was going to be like for the rest of my life.
Now some of the shock is wearing off and as I work through my inability to understand how they could do what they have done, I feel like I'm figuring things out.
One of the many things that I couldn't understand was how they could publish songs, movies, TV shows, ads, and so on with references to their crimes and not feel bad about it. Now I think I have realized that they enjoy their moral dichotomy. They enjoy their dirty, huge secret. They enjoy publishing things that brag about their real crimes against me and the public. They enjoy upsetting me with their bragging and they enjoy the unknowing public's positive response.
They feel like gods.
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