The double standard of abuse

Since 2010, elaborate and disgusting rumors have been mirthfully circulated about me.  The purveyors of the grotesque smear campaign are all alike in the way that they feel uncompromised by the tenor of their gossip.  Regardless of how vicious, sordid and explicit they are, their group assumption seems to be that they remain pure by definition, while their target or targets are made more guilty by being gossiped about.

For me to confront the gossip directly, facing my tormentors and talking about what they're doing, rather than giving them the satisfaction of watching me cower, mute, in the shame that they try to heap on me with innuendo, seems either to have no effect on observers or to have the effect of implicating me in the observers' minds as being deserving of the abuse that I have described.

The descriptions are painful for me to make.  I ignore far more abuse than I describe.